Tawbah; from 11 Years Ago

the picture i edited 11 years ago for my business: sajidahijab60 (later changed to elsajida)

So Facebook reminds me of this post I've written exactly 11 years ago; 21st September 2014. I'll share it here. 

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Bismillah. 

Whenever we think about all the sins that we’ve done, do our hearts ache? Do we feel remorse when we recall the mistakes we committed a long time ago? 

Hopefully we do. And it will be better if the pain we feel leads us to crying and wailing to Allah, pleading with Him to forgive each and every sin that has been written in our books.

We might forget certain sins that we’ve done, due to the countless number of them, but truthfully, Allah never forgets. He remembers every wrong deed of ours, no matter how long we’ve been drifted away from all the black days of ours.

Among the conditions of the tawbah to be accepted is for us to feel regret. And one way to prove that we really do feel regret about our sins is by having the pain residing in the heart. 

Wallahi it’s not easy to have such a feeling. It’s hard for us to honestly feel contrite about our past sins. It’s hard, but not impossible. The fact that you feel like repenting is already a sign that Allah wants to forgive you.

We really need to remind ourselves to have a correct understanding of how to repent. Don’t ask whether Allah will accept our repentance, rather, ask ourselves whether we’ve repented correctly.

He is waiting for us to return to Him. He is very happy when we want to return to the right path. May we all gather under His mercy one day. Amin.