The Final Year of My 30s

Bismillah. 

It's the last day of January and I think I should at least update one post here. 

I am 39 this year, the final year of my 30s. There's nothing else I want to achieve the most for myself this year; except to become a better Sajida in all aspects; spiritually, physically, mentally and emotionally. 

It has been years since my "downfall" phase and since then I've been trying my best to fix myself. I used to wonder why it's so hard to take back the years that i've lost, but then after contemplating, I think I know the reason. 

It's nobody's fault and I accept that this is part of Allah's plan for my life and I fully believe that His plan is always the best. 

I might not see what's there at the end of the tunnel, but I know I have to do something and what I do throughout this journey will help me become a better person, aligned with my purpose. 

I guess that's all for now. See you next month, hopefully. 

p/s: here's a photo dump of my January 2026: 

things i bought for myself on the 4th of january

among the books i sold; as preloved

the birthday cake i redeemed from ZUS Coffee

the book i bought from tsutaya. loveee it

a few days before school started, picnic day at desaru

went to ZUS Signature opening day

Chikopi (SIL's cafe) officially opened on 17th January

my first time going to KotaJail

Mohammed Solah Qestah, a figure from Gz that I followed since 2023, was martyred. 😞💔

finally, my very own coffee station.
masha Allah Alhamdulillah 

Masjid Tampoi Indah feat. my sling bag and travel journal

cooked telur kicap rembayung a.k.a telur kicap t20 lol

Finally, Cookiecrumbs outlet in JB. 

the ceramic cup i bought for myself as a birthday gift, as well as my first purchase from shein

seeing lots of kids at my neighborhood playground on weekday's evening tells me that the world is healing

me in my black attire, after spending non-comfortable hours of wearing soft pink. i love soft pink but not for my hijab, it makes my face look dull.