Friday, April 24, 2026

Cari Bahagia dengan Membahagiakan


Masa saya pergi haji tahun lepas, beberapa kali saya didatangi orang yang tidak dikenali (dari negara lain) kerana mereka mahu meminta pertolongan. Ada pelbagai pertolongan yang mereka minta, tapi tak semua yang mampu saya lakukan. 

Tapi ada satu yang paling saya tak mampu lupakan ialah bila ada pasangan tua dari Bangladesh yang datang meminta saya untuk bantu mereka buat panggilan ke negara mereka. (kami berada dalam salah satu mall berdekatan Masjidil Haram). 



MASALAH KOMUNIKASI & TEKNOLOGI

Ketika itu, komunikasi kami agak sedikit sukar kerana saya tidak faham bahasa yang mereka tuturkan, tak silap mereka guna bahasa Benggali (kalau bahasa Urdu saya boleh faham juga, ada orang Bangladesh yang boleh berbahasa Urdu tapi tak semua). 

Mereka juga tidak tahu English, tapi pasangan tua tersebut ada tunjukkan pada saya buku kecil bertulis nombor telefon seseorang. Fahamlah saya bahawa dia mahu menghubungi nombor tersebut. 

Satu lagi masalah yang timbul ialah bila saya tidak biasa dengan telefon yang digunakan, telefon Nokia ber'key-pad' tetapi yang saya tidak berapa tahu menggunakannya. Saya cuba buat panggilan ke nombor yang dimaksudkan, tetapi katanya di situ, panggilan ke luar negara adalah tidak dibenarkan. 

Saya cuba install whatsApp ke telefon tersebut, dengan harapan sekurang-kurangnya dapat berhubung melalui message, tapi tak berjaya kerana memori tidak mencukupi  dan ada lagi masalah lain. 

WAJAH RUNSING MEREKA 

Melihatkan wajah mereka, saya sejujurnya dapat memahami bahawa mereka tidak biasa berada di negara asing, mereka tiada kenalan di situ, dan mereka betul-betul perlu buat panggilan kepada ahli keluarga, besar kemungkinan untuk memberitahu bahawa mereka sudah selamat sampai di Tanah Haram. 

Ketika itu kami berada berhampiran dengan kiosk yang menjual simkad (pasangan tersebut baru beli simkad dari kiosk itu). 

Saya hampir berputus asa untuk mencuba sebab saya dah cuba segalanya yang saya mampu dan tetap tak berjaya buat panggilan. Sedih juga rasanya sebab tak berjaya tolong. 😢

Saya cuba pergi ke kiosk simkad tersebut untuk meminta bantuan, tapi malangnya kiosk tersebut terlalu penuh dan dikerumuni ramai orang, terutamanya rombongan jemaah haji yang baru tiba di Mekah dan perlukan simkad tempatan. 

MINTA TUHAN PERMUDAHKAN 

Ketika itu saya tiada lagi pilihan lain kecuali terus mencuba dan minta Allah bantu saya untuk membantu mereka. Tak sampai hati rasanya jika saya tidak berjaya membantu mereka menghubungi ahli keluarga. 

Untuk yang entah ke berapa kali, saya cek lagi mana-mana setting yang boleh saya selaraskan. Agak mengambil masa juga dan Alhamdulillah, dengan izin Allah, saya jumpa setting yang betul dan akhirnya berjaya membuat panggilan tersebut. 

Saya buat panggilan ke nombor yang tertulis di buku kecil mereka & kedengaran ada suara lelaki yang menjawab. Terus saya segera beri pada pakcik tua itu. 

AIRMATA GEMBIRA 

MashaAllah tak dapat saya gambarkan betapa bersyukur rasanya bila saya lihat wajah gembira mereka bila dapat bercakap dengan ahli keluarga. Mereka mengucapkan terima kasih kepada saya (dalam bahasa mereka) dan saya dapat lihat mata mereka berkaca-kaca. 

Berulang kali mereka mengucapkan terima kasih kepada saya dan wallahi, rasanya saya lah yang lebih gembira berbanding mereka. 

Gembira kerana dapat memberi bantuan kecil, gembira kerana dapat melihat wajah kelegaan mereka, gembira kerana Allah bantu saya dalam membantu orang lain meski pada awalnya ia kelihatan amat sukar bagi saya. 

BENARLAH BAHAGIA ITU PADA MEMBERI

Sungguh, memang ada perasaan yang sangat bahagia dalam hati saya selepas dapat membantu pasangan tua itu. Betapa sejak itu saya yakin bahawa untuk bahagia, cara paling mudah adalah dengan memberi. 

Adakala kita fikir kita akan bahagia bila kita dapat itu dan ini, tapi kita tak mampu jamin bahawa apa yang kita mahu itu memang akan jadi milik kita. Kerana itu, kalau kita mahu rasa bahagia/gembira, apakata kita gembirakan orang lain dengan apa sahaja cara yang kita mampu. 

Tak rugi memberi, dan saat memberi, tak perlu harapkan apa-apa sebagai pulangan, tapi yakinlah bahawa kebaikan itu pasti akan datang semula kepada kita dalam pelbagai cara dari Tuhan. Tak sekarang, mungkin esok, mungkin lusa, mungkin nanti bila giliran kita yang memerlukan. 

DOA YANG IKHLAS 

Salah satu perkara yang paling saya suka bila dapat membantu orang lain ialah apabila mereka mendoakan kita. Biasanya bila ada orang tolong kita, mesti automatik dalam hati kita akan doakan mereka kan? 

Dan saya percaya, setiap doa yang dituturkan oleh mereka yang telah kita bantu ialah doa yang cukup ikhlas, yang mudah-mudahan Allah akan makbulkan. 

Dalam dunia ni, adakala nikmat yang kita dapat bukanlah atas usaha kita, tapi atas doa-doa orang lain yang ikhlas buat kita. Betapa indah sebenarnya hidup ini apabila kita cuba untuk membahagiakan orang lain dan cuba memberi apa yang kita mampu. 

Allah itu Maha Adil, Maha Penyayang, tak ada satu pun yang kita lakukan yang sia-sia. Mungkin ada ganjaran yang tidak dapat kita lihat di dunia ini, tapi percayalah ada sesuatu yang besar yang tidak tergambarkan oleh kita yang telah Allah simpan untuk kita di sana nanti. 

Kita tidak minta manusia untuk beri ganjaran pada kita, cukuplah Allah beri ganjaran dan pilih kita untuk ke syurgaNya. Kerana di sana tempat berkumpulnya manusia-manusia yang Allah cinta. Apa lagi yang kita cari kalau bukan syurga & cintaNya?

p/s: post ini dari penulisan saya di Facebook pada tahun 2017

Tuesday, February 24, 2026

Memilih untuk Tidak Tenggelam Dalam Duka


So I was scrolling my private IG and came across this post, which was written on January 2017. I wanna share it here since I think it's still relevant.

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Tadi ada kawan whatsApp, cerita masalah dia. Kemudian ada satu part tu yang buat saya mengalir airmata.... Kawan kata lebih kurang macam ni; 

"Dari dulu lagi saya selalu bandingkan diri saya dengan Sajida. Sajida cantik, baik, pandai, solehah, ada keluarga sempurna, ada anak yang comel, hidup Sajida terlalu sempurna..." 

Allahuakbar... Sungguh sampai sekarang saat saya menulis ni, mata berair kerana terkenangkan kata-kata tu. Sebab saya rasa sedih. Rupanya selama ni ada yang memandang saya sedemikian rupa. 

Sedangkan apa yang sebenarnya yang jadi dalam hidup saya, apa yang Tuhan telah ambil dari saya, ujian apa yang telah Allah beri pada saya, berapa tahun saya berendam airmata kerana diuji sesuatu dalam jiwa, semuanya tak pernah ada yang tahu. 

Hidup saya tak sempurna, masih tak sempurna, bukan hanya ada gembira meski senyuman sentiasa terukir. Percayalah tiada sesiapa pun tidak pernah diuji sehingga dia rebah tak terdaya. 

Saya mungkin tak tunjuk yang sedih-sedih itu, tak war-warkan apa yang telah saya hilang, tak terlalu bercerita tentang duka demi duka, tapi tak bermakna ia tidak ada. Tak bererti segalanya sempurna. 

Saya memilih untuk melihat dari sudut yang bahagia, memilih untuk menyebarkan aura positif sahaja, memilih untuk yakin bahawa Tuhan menguji kerana mahu menguatkan saya, dan kerana itu saya tidak persoalkan kenapa saya diuji begitu begini, tak pernah menyesal ditemukan dengan orang itu dan ini, kerana saya sentiasa letak keyakinan tinggi bahawa Tuhan ada rencanaNya tersendiri yang tak sia-sia. 

Look into my eyes, 

and see the sorrow behind it.. 

Stare into my eyes,

and feel the suffering that lies there... 

You can't find it? 

Look again... 

You will find the heartbreaks, 

coz you have them in yourself too.... 

Coz we're all human. 

And those things are part of us, 

not to break us but to build us. 

Percayalah satu perkara; SEMUA manusia yang kita kenal, yang kita jumpa, yang kita lihat di social media, mereka semua diuji, mereka semua ada sesuatu yang Tuhan telah ambil dari mereka, mereka semua tak sempurna, tapi mereka memilih untuk terus kuat & tidak tenggelam dalam duka. 

Sajida, January 2017.

Saturday, January 31, 2026

The Final Year of My 30s

Bismillah. 

It's the last day of January and I think I should at least update one post here. 

I am 39 this year, the final year of my 30s. There's nothing else I want to achieve the most for myself this year; except to become a better Sajida in all aspects; spiritually, physically, mentally and emotionally. 

It has been years since my "downfall" phase and since then I've been trying my best to fix myself. I used to wonder why it's so hard to take back the years that i've lost, but then after contemplating, I think I know the reason. 

It's nobody's fault and I accept that this is part of Allah's plan for my life and I fully believe that His plan is always the best. 

I might not see what's there at the end of the tunnel, but I know I have to do something and what I do throughout this journey will help me become a better person, aligned with my purpose. 

I guess that's all for now. See you next month, hopefully. 

p/s: here's a photo dump of my January 2026: 


things i bought for myself on the 4th of january

among the books i sold; as preloved

the birthday cake i redeemed from ZUS Coffee

the book i bought from tsutaya. loveee it

a few days before school started, picnic day at desaru

went to ZUS Signature opening day

Chikopi (SIL's cafe) officially opened on 17th January

my first time going to KotaJail

Mohammed Solah Qestah, a figure from Gz that I followed since 2023, was martyred. 😞💔

finally, my very own coffee station.
masha Allah Alhamdulillah 

Masjid Tampoi Indah feat. my sling bag and travel journal

cooked telur kicap rembayung a.k.a telur kicap t20 lol

Finally, Cookiecrumbs outlet in JB. 

the ceramic cup i bought for myself as a birthday gift, as well as my first purchase from shein

seeing lots of kids at my neighborhood playground on weekday's evening tells me that the world is healing

me in my black attire, after spending non-comfortable hours of wearing soft pink. i love soft pink but not for my hijab, it makes my face look dull. 


Saturday, September 27, 2025

The Friendships That Shapes Me

(This is my writing from a few years ago, from my IG story. I wanna share it here). 

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I wanna tell a story about my own experience with the friendships I have had throughout my 34 years of living on this earth. 

I hope you can find the gems you need from these stories, depending on your own personal life and understanding.

p/s: Someone asked me about not getting the same vibes from her friends, and it hurts her. So I hope my stories can somehow help her feel better.

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I am always emotional when writing about friends coz I do value every special friendship that I have/had, and apparently, for every friend that I hoped I could be in a special friendship with, it didn’t survive. (Still in touch with them once in a while, it’s just that the friendship is no longer as close as it used to be.) 

Not their fault, of course. It’s just that eventually we found out that we didn’t have the same goals for that friendship. So in the end, it’s either me slowing down or them leaving me. 

And what I mean by special friendship is: a friendship where we both pray for each other, always want the best for each other (dunya & akhirah) and never stop supporting each other in whatever good things we are doing (when someone supports you, you can definitely feel it even when they don’t say it verbally). 

Bonus: we both have the dream of performing umrah together.

I don’t simply go to my friends and list down everything I want in the friendship, coz I do believe that if they’re the one, I will feel it right away based on the vibes they give and the way they ‘understand the assignment’. 

In addition to that, for me, the best friendship is the one where we can talk to each other about feelings, ugly sides, and basically everything without making either of us feel even a tiny bit judged or avoided. 

note: I know certain women believe that they don’t really need a best friend once they’re married, but for someone in a situation like mine, having a best friend is vital. So let’s avoid being judgmental toward each other, and let’s not rate who’s better.

I once had a best crazy-friend, but I realized that we were close to each other only during our happy moments. Kawan gila-gila for huha huha, but we both didn’t really know each other’s stories. 

I’m sure we all have this kind of friend, kan? Of course, we are happy with them and miss them whenever they’re away. Or maybe we can call them our ‘hang-out’ friends?  

Back to my story, when we both graduated and didn’t really meet each other, I realized she had changed. No, not physically, but in the way she replied to my messages; starting from giving me a cold tone to no reply at all, for around a year. 

I was super sad about it and even told my husband that I dreamt about her a few times; perhaps because I missed her so much. And it hurts to think that she left me wondering what my fault was.

Long story short, she called me and told me she was facing big problems in her life and even went somewhere far away secretly for a while to heal. 

Since then, I’ve learned that when someone gives us the cold shoulder, we should suspend our judgment and try to understand that they might be facing difficulties that make them feel like they need quiet time away from everyone; instead of blaming ourselves or assuming everything negative about them.

And what’s more important is the lesson my husband taught me: contact your friends who all of a sudden choose to go into hiatus mode, tanya khabar and say that you are there for them if they ever need you, but don’t feel bad if they don’t reply. 

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Let's move on to another story.

I once had a best friend who basically knew everything about me, and vice versa. She was there for me when nobody else knew the difficulties I had.

So what’s the problem? 

She didn’t have the same goal regarding our friendship, so we found out that because of that difference, it was super hard for us to walk side by side on the same path.

So little by little, we left each other, and as Dena Bahrin once said, we both were “sad but accepted the fact” that we had to let go of that close friendship. No grudges, no resentment, no ill feelings. 

But one thing’s for sure, we both still pray for the best for each other. And Allah always knows best; today might not be the best time for us, and perhaps one day it will be, if that’s what’s best for our dunya and akhirah.

The lesson I’ve learned from it: It’s not anybody’s fault when a certain friendship has to end. Try to learn the precious lessons from it, appreciate the beautiful memories created together, and always, always pray for each other. And surely, it’s not important to find out who’s to be blamed.

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And I have a few close friends that I regard as special (coz they’re closer), but it turns out I am not as special to them as I thought I was. 

So little by little, I learned to be okay with the fact that I am just another good friend they have on their list. To be okay with that is indeed helpful in making me feel fine whenever I notice we don’t give mutual vibes to each other. 

Lesson: It’s important to accept the hard truth that people are different and have their own preferences/lifestyles. InshaAllah, with this kind of mentality, we won’t easily feel hurt, left out, tawar hati, and whatnot. Even if we do, we can easily move on from that feeling.

After what happened, I guess it’s okay not to have that one special friend. 

What’s more important is for me to be kind to everyone, and to be grateful for the blessing of having people (including strangers) who are kind to me; for example, you. 

If having “her” is good for my dunya and akhirah, I believe He will let me find one in His own special way.

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And… I am sooo thankful to Allah that He let me find my childhood best friend recently. I did feel like crying when we talked about our current lives and found out that we have so many similar life events. 

It kind of feels impossible, but that’s what happened. MashaAllah. Do you know how they say that other than the support from family and friends, having the chance to talk to someone (even a stranger) who is going through the same thing is totally helpful and gives us the strength to keep going? 

Yes, it really does feel like a gift from Allah to have her in my current life. I cried when she said: 

“Terima kasih tak pernah give up cari kita.”

♥️

Friday, September 26, 2025

Minta Allah Jadikan Kita Muqimussolah

Nak tahu satu doa yang sangat penting untuk kita amalkan setiap hari? 


Selain doa meminta ampun dan meminta dimasukkan ke Syurga, satu lagi doa yang amat perlu kita panjatkan setiap hari dan sebanyak-banyaknya ialah; 

doa agar Allah jadikan kita orang yang mendirikan solat (muqimussolah). 

Kita tahu iman kita tak sentiasa di atas, tak sentiasa jiwa terikat kuat dengan Tuhan. Ada masa kita rasa malas sangat nak solat, dan ada masa kita rasa susahnya nak solat di awal waktu. 

Sebab tu kita kena minta sungguh-sungguh dari Tuhan, agar Dia jadikan kita hamba yang sentiasa tak sabar nak solat menghadap Dia, yang selalu ternanti waktu solat sebab nak rasakan kemanisan waktu sendirian dengan Dia. 



Kalau boleh menangis masa minta tu, menangislah. Yang paling kita perlu banyak alirkan airmata adalah untuk Dia. Yang paling kita tak payah malu untuk menangis teresak-esak ialah pada Dia. 

Kalau kita tak rasa ada nikmat dalam solat, mintalah ampun dan minta Allah bantu kita rasai kemanisannya. Kalau kita tak rasa ada ketenangan hakiki dalam solat kita, mintalah agar Allah berikan perasaan itu.

Apa-apa yang kita mahu, mintalah dari Dia. 

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From my Facebook post, written on 26th September 2016. 

Wednesday, September 24, 2025

The Arabic Store That Warms My Heart


Last year I found out that there's an Arabic grocery store near our favorite restaurant. So every time we go and dine in at that particular restaurant, I take that opportunity to buy something from that Arabic grocery store. 

I can say that going to that place somehow heals my heart, which is longing for Makkah and Madinah. The smell, the vibes and the items there definitely make me smile from ear to ear. Seeing almost everything sold there with arabic text on it is definitely heartwarming. 

I don't intend to write a lot here, just wanna share the photos I captured a few days ago. So, let the pictures talk! 😄 

didn't expect that the price is only rm13 ++

planned to buy this to eat with plain yogurt but next time insha Allah

would definitely buy this if we don't have one at home

banana milk. yummy!

a must-buy item for a milk lover like me

powdered vanilla. already have one at home.

my first time seeing baking soda with arabic text on it

not sure what's this

snapped a pic coz it looks interesting 

cute cookie

gonna try this later insha Allah. 

love the packaging. <3

will come again insha Allah

so i bought these 4 items. ♥️


That's all. Bye for now!

Sunday, September 21, 2025

Tawbah; from 11 Years Ago

the picture i edited 11 years ago for my business: sajidahijab60 (later changed to elsajida)

So Facebook reminds me of this post I've written exactly 11 years ago; 21st September 2014. I'll share it here. 

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Bismillah. 

Whenever we think about all the sins that we’ve done, do our hearts ache? Do we feel remorse when we recall the mistakes we committed a long time ago? 

Hopefully we do. And it will be better if the pain we feel leads us to crying and wailing to Allah, pleading with Him to forgive each and every sin that has been written in our books.

We might forget certain sins that we’ve done, due to the countless number of them, but truthfully, Allah never forgets. He remembers every wrong deed of ours, no matter how long we’ve been drifted away from all the black days of ours.

Among the conditions of the tawbah to be accepted is for us to feel regret. And one way to prove that we really do feel regret about our sins is by having the pain residing in the heart. 

Wallahi it’s not easy to have such a feeling. It’s hard for us to honestly feel contrite about our past sins. It’s hard, but not impossible. The fact that you feel like repenting is already a sign that Allah wants to forgive you.

We really need to remind ourselves to have a correct understanding of how to repent. Don’t ask whether Allah will accept our repentance, rather, ask ourselves whether we’ve repented correctly.

He is waiting for us to return to Him. He is very happy when we want to return to the right path. May we all gather under His mercy one day. Amin.